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Sunday, October 31, 2021

Writing: How do you find the motivation to finish a book when you're half way through and want to stop? by Kyle Phoenix

Motivation/Discipline is not something that’s created by doing something, it’s created by doing a thing over and over. It’s like if you bake a hundred loaves of bread, trying to make each one good, very good, slight variations—-all that effort creates discipline and motivation.

Much to the same with writing.

The way I break the mundanity (and not the creativity but sometimes the design ,the effort, the storyline can hit a snag and start feeling mundane) is I stop.

I work on multiple projects. Then like a river, rushing in another direction, I’ll suddenly spring into a project that I left at a point with some of that thrust.

You can look up Kyle Phoenix Fan Fic and find an X-Men opus—-abut 20 chapters, several hundred pages—-I’ve printed out a mock copy (can’t print out for reals because of copyright laws) but that story I literally work out my writing jones, ideas, characters, how to write certain kinds of scenes, odd ideas that go nowhere, work that I have no “place for in my other projects, silly ideas.

So I use X-Men minor characters that aren’t big in the comics because then they’re a little fresh to me, to be creative with.

Right now I’m working on two novels, which I should have in Final Drafts by the end of the year—-Free and Mbube Mbube.

Free I constructed to 10 chapters so that was easier to dive in and out and write pieces/a chapter at a time. I recently found a picture online of a mother standing between her son and an army officer/police officer—-and that got me into Chapter 10 where a mother steps between her son and his father, who is intent on killing him. Though the picture was debunked, it resonates enough to motivate.

Experimentation/Motivation

I’m often trying something new out, in fact, an idea doesn’t graduate to the level of being worth typing up, handwriting, unless it’s got an original hook to it somewhere. Free came about as a recurring theme I was hearing in workshops over the years, and my own experience with Black/Latino men trying to kill their sons. I got to thinking on it and what would twist a father to hunt his son? Each chapter, 10, are then slow unveilings of what brings Dominic to the point of hunting his son. The crimes, the manipulations, the history. My thought was that in the beginning it is an insane act, but by the end could I make it make sense?

Mbube Mbube is my first deep foray into writing a horror novel—-I had a dream about it and typed it into the internet and discovered it’s an African children’s game. So now I have to design a plot around this. I thought I would keep it centered with African children and an African nation and a plane crash. But what really happened to the students? Did the plane really crash?

Then I’m working on a trilogy, Race War, that I’ve been thinking on for years and I literally needed a biological weapon so I’m skimming through bio-weapons on the internet and I came across a health oddity, pointedly in some Africans. I literally had the “prize” in Mbube Mbube in my Race War research.

So now I know that the end of Mbube Mbube is where the agents in Race War discover this perverted bio-research and that gives me my bio-weapon for Race War.

S: A Novel

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Again each of the above is an experimentation—-I’ve written dramas and such before, even trying my hand at a sci-fi novel S (available on Amazon) but I’ve yet to do horror, speculative race based scifi.

Stay With Me

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Hush and Stay With Me, both published and available on Amazon—-were forays into speculative fiction/fantasy.

Tranny: A Transsexual Tale

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Tranny (published) and Free are sort of hardcore forays into heavy drama, sort of culminating into a novel, in bits and pieces called Street Life (I have about 20+ pages handwritten); then there’s Sanction, a thriller where a small town in systematically wiped out by soldiers one weekend—-the point of why, possibly answered in multiple ways.

Court of Conscience (80% finished) is first a trilogy that will have 3 more trilogies—-a legal drama/thriller.

Then I had another dream of an entire novel about a teenage boy in some godforsaken country who has to flee his country Where The Walker and The Path Meet. I know he makes it to Starbucks at the end. lol.

Then I had another dream this past week for two more novels—-one I got down—-A Nook, The Twit and a House In Virginia about three outcasts in college—-I might go straight drama with it or heavy fantasy, I’m not sure.

The second novel was about Greek Gods in modern day which might flow into Myriad, a 12 book series I’ve written a few hundred pages of but spotlighted a chapter in the ending of Stay With Me. (I have this insane idea of creating like a spider web of characters, places throughout several books so that it can be linked “series”.)

That’s just the fiction I’m working on for the next years or so. There’s a good dozen more of non-fiction.

What helps with discipline-motivation I find is a robust catalogue of experimentations, challenges and ideas segmented to various projects. It literally always gives me somewhere to go and alternatively pressure to complete something.

I try to also do research into things, ways of thinking, writing—-like horror—-not my preferred genre to read or write—-or even watch in movies—-so now I’m watching horror movies to understanding the “beats”, the rhythms of how they work. I’ve already gone back into Mbube Mbube and noted where I needed to press for more foreboding/danger rather than dive into deep characterization. The point is the horrific horror/supernatural not the characters, as it is in other works.

Through bouncing throughout all of these projects I’m baking loaves of bread; through revisions and editing, baking bread, learning how to fix loaves of bread; and through jotting down new ideas I’m learning how to formulate “dough” better—-by doing things like setting up book layout/templates, approximating pages and chapters to insert writing to, jotting down broad strokes of ideas/characters so that they don’t clutter other ideas.

The pointed motivation becomes I’m interested in some form of resolution to not only the idea but also to the experimentation—-did I achieve a good horror novel? I’m also looking at a Young Adult novel, a mystery novel, a lesbian novel—-I want to try out as many genres as possible—-that keeps me “interested” in my own work and trying out (and yes, failing at some) but constantly trying.

Then I push myself with short stories, handwritten—-10–50 pages at a time, on ideas that might not be big enough for a full novel but are interesting or slice of life or good for a collection of short stories (two volumes so far, Escapades, again on Amazon).

Escapades: A Collection, Volume 1

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Escapades II: A Collection of Short Stories (Escapades Collection Book 2)

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I also tend to use good short stories, snippets, pieces in larger projects when I have a similar idea to formulate into a novel. I’m using a piece written long ago, diary entries for Free—-recycling if you will but also it’s a strong narrative piece that I could fit into a full chapter for such a complex tale.

It seems/sounds like a lot but what motivation and discipline have done—- imagine our bread metaphor is now a highway/road and that I’m further down the highway, by abut 30 years of writing, so I can bake bread better and faster, even if I don't’ finish it in one baking. It takes time to juggle so many ideas, hold so many projects so I try to juggle two or three at most at first—-one giving respite and rest from the others. Eventually time and ideas will multiply, especially when you start finishing projects so that you can do more and more, squeeze out more and more, start binders, pads and file folders of more and more.

The best advice to first discipline in motivation I can offer is start an organizational system on and offline, in boxes and on your computer——I often spend days just organizing, systematizing—-your writing—-projects to boxes, to research, templates of chapters/table of contents. It will make discipline a lot easier because you’ll have ready containers to pour your work into.

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Kyle Phoenix is a teacher, certified adult educator, sexologist, sex coach and sexuality educator with over two decades of intensive experience. He studied at the University at Buffalo, SUNY, New York University, and Columbia University. He has worked, consulted and taught individuals and focused professional developments for the CDC, Department of Education, Gay Men's Health Crisis, New York City Department of Health, non-profits, Fortune 500 companies and unions. He began his career facilitating on-campus workshops addressing a wide range of sexuality and sexual health issues and then moved on to teaching at universities, non-profits, private groups and clients, hosting The Kyle Phoenix Show on television and multiple online webinars, including YouTube and Sclipo and writing extensively through his blog, Special Reports, articles and other print and E books in the Kyle Phoenix Series on relationships, finance, education, spirituality and culture. He lives in New York with his family.

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How did you become so exceptionally witty, intelligent and well-read? by Kyle Phoenix

I came to this question taking a Pomodoro break from a Project Management course—-and read Elena Vrana’s great write up on her process. I do much the same—-my grandmother used to read 4–5 books a week, that’s my aim as well, I don’t watch regular TV with the exception of The Profit, sometimes Shark Tank and Love It or List—-I tend to enjoy process/teaching/learning shows. I watch mainly documentaries on people so that I understand psychology, sociology and culture better. Different countries, different customs and languages. When I do watch fictional movies I have been leaning in the past decade or so to foreign films and series—-one it gives a great insight to that culture—-I’m watching a South Korean sci-fi thingie and there is a heavy emphasis form their culture on loyalty and connection to one another—-it was after a few episodes where I was wondering why the romance took such a backseat to this connectivity and then comparing it to other shows I realized, it’s cultural.

In watching foreign works I whether use the subtitles or the dubbing but what I also find interesting to do and I use it in teaching too. In teaching, younger people having the subtitles on forces them to read as they watch, which causes a slight detachment from the video——so I can use the excitement of scenes form the Matrix to illustrate a point but they don’t get lost in the scenes themselves to answer quiz questions because the subtitles “halt” being engrossed. (I also don't run videos for longer than 15 minutes at a time.)

The above, my internalized process, as an introvert means that I accept people and cultures, especially differences as natural. I accept different as natural rather than odd or threatening. It also deeply informs my own personal learning process and the expansiveness of my knowledge and interests. I try to purposeful explore other places, people things (I’m about to dive into a biography on Mao, Golda Meir, I regularly buy large scale books on artists, economics, psychology, sociology and I occasionally read either bubble gum pulpy fiction (for relaxation) or I’m focused on “high” literature, a hundred plus classics, for a writing project I’m working on.)

I, who have read and studied a lot, am always amazed at how many more thoughts and stories and ideas and discoveries there are out there. It’s one of the things that keeps me engaged in life itself.

Curiosity About The World

I’m also deeply curious about the world and people and nature and such—-so without my contacts or glasses I’m often veering into places to look at thins to ask questions, to check things out. I notice, now, most people with their noses in their phone, distracted, texting not absorbing the world around them. Ironically I do a lot of publishing of content—-books, videos, blogs, articles, a TV show so I’m often synthesizing information for those productions but at the same time I’m not tied to my phones—-I have two, one just for taking pictures—-so I’m deeply engaged with technology but I use it, I’m not absorbed into it.

Personal Interactions

I would say that one thing I notice that stands out is one, I make eye contact with everyone—-Dr. WH Hunter, my English AP teacher in high school, taught me that if I had trouble/trepidation making eye contact to look at someone's’ eyebrows, forehead or the crown of their head—-they couldn't tell the difference. I did this for years until I was past being shy. I also speak clearly, directly, and I smile. Not a false, I just ate a mouse smile but a gentle open/Hello smile.

And I’m very, very, very big on manners—Please, Excuse Me, Thank you—-I often think about making up thousands of little cards or signs of these three as reminders, and just posting them everywhere I go. It would change the world.

I do an active thing where when people, adults, teens, whomever approach me I give everyone the same level of presentational respect/greeting—-I make it a point to be singular, polite, open to everyone even though here in NY some folk look wild, crazy, disturbed, upset, confused. It’s yes, a way of having a “false” face but it’s also a way of my not snapping as a grouch or changing how I interact based upon a person’s sex, gender, social class, age.

With vagrants or beggars, I make eye contact. And I either give or I tell them firmly but directly, “No, thank you.” You’d be surprised at how it serves and stops people because I’m acknowledging their existence, I simply choose not to participate/give. But I see them as people, I still see them as a creation within the universe.

I do another thing—-I imagine, simply passerby's——smiling. I imagine what people look like smiling and laughing, especially the ones who aren’t. You’d be surprised at how you can re-arrange a person’s face, how you can see the smile in them with just a casual glance. In that way I guess, I see people being pleasant towards me, even when they aren’t.

I also do a Vedic exercise where I actively think—-”The Light of God within me salutes and blesses the Light of God within you.” If you just stand somewhere, a corner, on a subway, etc. doing this, it shifts all of reality after a few minutes because it presses to see people, to acknowledge them, to extend spiritually to them.

I also try to find small but significant compliments in even the most casual or mundane of positions—-cashiers, delivery people, police officers. A smile, a nod, a little teasing comment when I see them notice something—-it says that I see you. Everyone wants to be validated especially people who sort of fade into the background of life. I’m always talking directly to the person in front of me—-I’m never looking at a cell phone screen or texting while talking to people—-because I feel a little affront inside when people do it to me. To that end, people often feel like they’re getting my undivided attention.

Have a Joke or a Story

Possibly because of teaching—-I stand in front of rooms—-and I have to get the conversational ball rolling—-I make sure I have safe jokes, humor, light stories, personal tales of learning or going from A to B or something new or odd I’ve noticed—-though I would say I’m not good at chit chat, I am good and projecting/doing it when I have to because I see it as a practicable skill. In person I seem like an extrovert because of it but I’m not, I’m just good and mimicking the skillsets of extroverts.

I also try to have good questions to ask people but more importantly, I listen “past” the first answer——when people speak, I let them finish and then I let a moment sit, a few seconds, and invariably people fill in the silence, the blanks with more information.

And even more importantly, which builds rapport, I make it a point, no distractions to listen to a person, and tuck it away in a file mentally about them. Likes, dislikes, vacations, etc. so that years later (around campus lots of staff went on breaks/furlough so there’s been an influx of folk that I haven’t seen in awhile) I can pick up and drop into a conversation about the vacation someone took with their daughter. A porter, took his daughter to Europe as a college gift a few years ago, furloughed, came back and I asked him did they have further travel plans? One, he was pleased to be “seen” and two, yes, they did, looking to investigate Greece—-which allowed me to bring up how I’d like to visit Mykonos or Crete and away we went into our Greece discussion.

Writing Codifies An Interior Monologue to Share

I read, listen and write a lot, a lot a lot. Writing seems to allow me to consider things better, consider things from differing perspectives, even in work conflicts, I’m always digging deeper for how the other person thinks/ feels, their motivations. I notice that other coworkers leave conflicts or contradictory think of the other person as evil or out to destroy them—-when in fact, with a little thought and speculation, you can generally see another person’s perspective and motivation.

No One is Stupid Even If They’re Shortsighted or Foolish

I often chastise coworkers not to consider others “stupid” to always think of others, even those in conflict as just as smart as you or smarter. One, it ups your game and two, it forces you to think of what they might see, think, or know that you don’t.

I’m smart, I know I’m smart but I don’t know that I’m the smartest, anyone, anywhere could be that, smarter, about a host of things—-I allow for that. Which in turn makes me intelligent and reduces stress because I don’t have the burden or responsibility of being the brain in the room all the time, even in my own head.

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My local TV show, I’ve been producing and hosting for about 13 years now. What this has done is, I’m occasionally recognized on the street, on buses, on the train in Manhattan. So I have to have a receptive, reasonably pleasant face/response. I also have done lots of teachings at university, non-profits, DOE schools, etc.. so I have a high level of interaction, past and present, with literally thousands of people—-some of whom I remember directly, most I don’t or have never in person met. This presses me to be conscious about being present and polite or receptive.

I’ve also done in studio and out in the field interviews so I’ve spent some time studying interviewers, styles, focus, attention. And I mimic that, I try to imagine being an empty vessel and just allowing the other person to fill the space of the conversation. I try to ask good, concise, direct but not intrusive questions. I like to let people talk. I generally email them the Proust Questionnaire and tell them I probably won’t ask you all of these questions but think about—-what are your favorite books or movies or accomplishments or places you’ve visited; how have you dealt with setback, etc.—-that 20+ questions swirling around in their head, gives us not only places to go to start up a conversation but it also kind of shakes loose the memories and impression and thoughts that even if I don’t ask it directly, the question is at the forefront of their mind to insert into a tale, a joke, an idea, etc..

I’m about to embark on a series/project of a few hundred interviews so I’m really thinking about how in a short period of time to get some good, salient insights from the people in a variety of fields, careers and lifestyles.

The above all sort of sums up to my being able to engage the world, its’ people easier than I always feel internally, emotionally. I am an extreme introvert. And often socially shy. But I’ve made it a game/point to have a big toolbox to be able to rectify that when needed.

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How often do you contemplate life, death, and existence? How often does your mind drift to these topics? ny Kyle Phoenix

I think about it often but in phases.

Like I think about the fact, as I’m on the train crossing water, seeing waves of people below the elevated train or walking in the street—-oh, one day I will be dead and this too shall continue to occur.

I used to be obsessed the other way—-I don’t want to die, I don’t want to die, I don’t want to die—-through my teens/twenties, it’s literally how I would rock myself to sleep at night.

I think it was a bouncing far end repercussion to being a teen and feeling like the world ended/suicidal over a broken love affair in high school. And then just when I thought I was amped to it, dying, I reneged on myself and sort of pushed myself to live fully, live life.

Life

I went off to college, threw myself into writing and sending out submissions—-I really got activated in life. What happened after college in my 20s is I still hadn’t completely fixed my boundaries with family and friends—-so I had some pretty dysfunctional people in my life then. I do believe that the 5 people you surround yourself with on a regular basis (one sort of has to half exclude coworkers) does affect your perspective and outlook on yourself and life.

Without a malignant narcissitic best friend who/is trans gender but not a transsexual for 20+ years as a roommate—-my life changed.

Getting Elizabeth, a therapist for a year, to help me establish boundaries and see myself clearly, helped tremendously.

Maintaining strict boundaries with my mother and family, there being a hiccup or two over the years but understanding that their addictions and greed towards me and money, all broiled into being dysfunctional and that I was not responsible for that nor could I fix it with money nor education.

I had to establish and create other family systems, join groups, make friends but over the years, I’ve omitted quite a few family members. I had to look at their resume (pedophiles, convicts, burglars, robbers, thieves, Welfare lifers, uneducated, drug-alcohol addicts)—-looking at all of these categories I saw that I had established myself beyond all of those things and that freedom, being free, being different can also cause it’s own kind of depression. I had to leave familiar faces for simply the big, wide world and fend for myself.

(Sometimes I do sit or lay in bed, look at the ceiling, eating food, looking at a book and recognize that I, me, Kyle created all of this, paid for it and has done so for decades—-especially when I say see an old TV episode that I know I saw 10 or 20 years ago and I trace back to that year and recognize—-yup, I was independent and self sufficient that year too.)

I’ve written 100+ books, gotten praise from all around the world, letters and salutations and invitations and done readings and even won awards. No one I am or have been blood related to has ever read one of my books. In the beginning I was offended and depressed by that, hurt. But now I see them clearly with my own maturity.

So for my teens to early 30s I was wrestling with depression, anger, thoughts of non-existence to suicidal ideation because of lack of autonomy, lack of support for my identity/work and my being entangled into dysfunctional relationships/family relationships.

Writing for the past 30+ years shifted this to a balancing perspective—-by that I mean I think we can think about say death, as death, dying, no longer existing and then farther on the spectrum we can think of it as not wanting to exist-suicide, anomie. The weight or push from external forces/people adopted internally pushes to one end or the other. When I shifted how I allowed the external forces to push at me, it re-balanced how I was able to think about death——in yes, a personal way but also in a detached way, an inevitable way, a compassionate way (towards others) and not as a surcease from the external.

Which meant I had to really consider my life, my interests, my goals, my responsibilities, what freedom really means in a broad context. One of the things I did in college was Tony Robbins Personal Power 1 & 2 systems of 30 days of essentially self evaluation and goal setting. I also added in Marianne Williamson taped lectures as I was studying A Course in Miracles.

Then I did college groups, where we talked about issues ranging from school to family to incest to racism, and I TAed and taught sexuality workshops. I externalized some of the detritus from the world/my family so that my Life didn’t feel as burdened by them/it.

What this has summed to is looking at my Existence—-what am I here for? What is my Purpose?

When my mother lay dying, the last relative I knew I would be close to of those left in my family, and I considered her life and death and such, I really also got time—-just to wander between her house and the hospital for a year and a half then bringing her to NYC—-to really think about myself, what mattered, what didn’t, what things would be like the day after she died. To some degree, luckily, she asked to be moved here to NYC so that gave me a 6 month project to focus on and then a few weeks after we got here, she died.

And it was a relief.

I was relieved because I could finally see that what was intended of a life was not to simply serve another's. (Which is to some degree what she wanted of mine.) I had rightfully rebelled, walked away almost 20 years before that to go off to college, to become Kyle. I’d always thought that when her existence, my last parents existence, ended, in some ways I would end. How would I go on? Alone? Then I realized…I’d been alone for years, decades prior to her death.

I was okay.

Purpose

Then I started looking at myself for what my Purpose was—-and there was my writing, my books published, stories, articles, even my local TV show that I maintained going back and forth to Charlotte. That the work was to create stuff that was good, useful, educating. That I had worked as a teacher and the process was evolving into a physical-digital way.

I often think about if what I do, missives, digital missives out into the cyber-ether, do for others, help, as intended. And then I further wonder, okay, if this is part of my destiny then is it to make up for the lack of support that I’ve gotten from those supposedly closest to me? Is the feedback, the adulation, the praise to make up for the lack of praise I got from my own kin?

And is that enough? Good enough? Fulfilling?

I therefore tinker with my engine, my internal engine—-attacking any moments of doubt or fear or laziness because I know I am my engine, my best engine. And yes, it’s made up of lots of widgets in therapists (3), mentors (8), teachers/writers, etc. (innumerable).

I often listen to people and the gaps, the chips, the fractures I hear in them of doubt and fear and apathy are so prominent that it changes their lives—-or most appropriately, it is so prominent that it prevents them from changing their lives.

Sometimes I think about the woes of folks, coworkers, students, and I try to embody that woe—-put on their woe sweater—-comparison but not superiority. I try to see their stuff through my eyes, to understand it. And I realize how many people don’t have a Purpose, they have tasks, they have responsibilities but they don’t have a joyous, a joy fulfilling, a joy, internally, giving Purpose. I have that. That’s the cracks and fissures and sadness and anger I often sense from them.

At 30, ill and hopped up on drugs for the first time seriously in my life and isolated , I distinctly remember sealing a “crack” within myself—-left from an abusive childhood, a dysfunctional family, held pain—-I was able to consciously heal and shift. I think being super conscious of the pain, slowly working at healing it, chiseling at it with new ideas from smart folk, helped dramatically. Also I think not simply the drugs, to lower my ego barriers but the isolation, being ill, facing a sense of mortality, gave me the impetus to dig into my own psyche and repair, discard a pebble-irritant-wound I’d always felt at the back of my “self”.

To contemplate life, death, existence—-I’m lucky that teaching/writing gives me areas to live out other lives, discourse about them, write about them, in new and challenging ways (sometimes a character’s question or fear is my own) and come to steps of answers—-is not an easy task, perhaps in the end it is the sole life task.

Death

I see in many people how partners, family, children, money isn’t enough. I also see how scared people are at asking the questions, getting answers or worse, the truth, you get progressive answers—-deeper-higher answers as life goes on—they shift as you experience more and more. My mother’s death, feared by me for decades, was a relief, a release, a freedom, a closure that now brings both smile and tear, sometimes in the same moment.

I just read a thing about parental death and how it is still a continuation of the relationship, simply no longer physical. How they are simply internalized to one's mind/dreams/inner voice/memories. I have a huge storage room that contains stuff from my mothers' house and recently I was organizing and sorting and came upon a satchel, monogrammed from a school I’d worked at, envelopes stuffed into the satchel in the flurry of moving across states—-but inside, somehow, were several photo albums from my mother and her PR work, events, her modeling agency, her non-profit—-all these pictures of her over about 30 years and scads of people I didn’t know.

I sat there looking at her life, knowing her death, thinking on her existence and thinking what would I do with all of these pictures?—-a bigger album?—-and then what would happen to them one day, in a few decades when I die?—-kids to pass them onto?—-and I was looking at all that stuff and thinking—-where do I pass this on to in 10, 20, 30, 40 years?

My writing, my Purpose because it’s bigger than just pen to paper, it has saved me. It has kept me alive. It has been my Life and halted Death and stood as the reason for my existence.

But the question, the mission, one’s Purpose, in a consciously lived life is to keep asking this question in deeper and higher ways, because that's what happens, You, Me, as people, should get Deeper and Higher in the manifestation of ourselves.

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What is the biggest surprise about getting rich? by Kyle Phoenix

I originally thought, from childhood businesses and then a teen national business, that money was wealth. Very A to B. It took about another 5–7 years post college to create another business, another company—-first I simply started selling books, CDs, DVDs online. Used at that. Robert Kiyosaki challenged in one of his Rich Dad books to look around and see what I could do/sell. I had extra books. (I’d actually also gone to one of his seminars here in NY so I was really hyped.) I went from $50 a month to $27,000 one week. Yes, selling used items.

But then a funny thing happened on the way to wealth. I learned about product and scale and exponential increases and such. Which meant that what I’d done to make $50 and then what I’d done to make $27,000 were different than what it would take to make $100,000 or even $1 million. I’d created a job. A job I completely owned, but a job nonetheless. And because of the vagaries of retail online—-later I would learn the 80/20 Principle—-20% of my inventory sold fast but 80% sat slowly selling over time (like the whole year) so I had to get larger and larger apartments to hold my inventory. And if you do the math, you see that it would require huge numbers of items to maintain (at an average sale of $6.42 an item) a $27,000 profit a month.

I realized I knew how to make money, but not how to create wealth.

What I did learn though was that though resale was hot, ownership was better. I was reselling thousands of books and CDs and DVDs. I then realized that I had to work—-go out and find, catalogue, inventory, upload those tens of thousands of items. Then I got into all kinds of margin arbitrage with blockbuster DVDs like The Matrix, The Hulk, Finding Nemo, Passion of Christ—-essentially drop shipping.

Looking closely, particularly after I came up with the SAME marketing strategy as Mel Gibson for Passion of the Christ—-he/his company was able to implement it for the DVDs before I could. But I wasn’t upset, I knew I was on to something, I knew I knew something, I just didn’t know what it was.

Ownership

Ownership is Wealth.

I didn’t own anything that I was selling. I needed to build content that I owned and then sell that in physical and digital eBook form and videos and even a TV show. That took another 5 years of testing and perfecting and now I’m about 13 years into the TV show/videos and 8 into the books.

I’ve achieved wealth because I create a product once and stuff from nearly a decade ago is still chugging along, selling, and I get money from it.

I originally thought money was wealth——but creating an infinite cycle of returns is wealth. And then I simply disperse profits into the business, stocks, real estate and the process continues in multiple ways.

So now, with $1 or $10,000 I look at investment products, of my own creation or other businesses, to put those dollars to work in.

What I hear from others is get another job, work harder but they’re trying to trade Time for Money to Achieve Wealth (Freedom)—-because Wealth is really Freedom.

However not understanding the principle of Wealth not being Money going In to it/to create it nor what the byproduct of it is, most, 90% try to create money.

So now at a valuation of my TV shows library in the millions, I think about rebroadcast, resell, valuation and then where to move that money it sloughs off. I’m now taking seriously breaking off videos from the TV show, experimenting with the numbers, subscribers, etc, content, etc. but really thinking —-if I do X amount of TV shows—-right now I’m contracted to potentially 3 more contract phases—-ending with a library of 2000 shows, can I get 5000 videos out of that? And can I arrange for the majority of the short videos and at least a third of the TV show episodes to keep generating revenue.

Ok, then how many books—-300 by our next review year of 2025 and applying the same principle across hardcover, PB and eBooks—-deliberately creating materials where 80% is useful to consumers for the next 20–30 years….what is that revenue?

What about the current 2500 blogs/articles I have going up to say 10,000 in the next few years, how many of those can create revenue?

Most importantly, owning it all. Owning my work is a cornerstone of wealth

That’s what I’ve learned as I’ve moved into wealth in the past few years—-it’s not just money—-it’s controlling an infinite resource that you can slough off to create money from.

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