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Monday, October 29, 2018

Can you share a bit of your stream of consciousness? Kyle Phoenix Answers

Can you share a bit of your stream of consciousness?

Kyle Phoenix, Writer and student & Instructor at Columbia University

Body and Soul playing by Anita Baker.

I like this song a lot. I've wasted too much time living for what wasn't mine....and then came you.

Time to type. Till five am. Body and soul. Don’t leave me out in the cold.

Sad? Depressed? Or did I just not do a lot this week? Bed. Spent a lot of time in bed. Sex? Maybe. Maybe take him on a date. To where? Take him to dinner for baby birth. Will he be able to find the restaurant? Be comfortable? Have taken other students there to celebrate. Yes, its my favorite restaurant. Four star Buffet. 37 kinds of meat on swords. Astrid Gilberto...see God supports Plataforma Churruuscarria as a choice. They play this kind music all the time.

Ugh. Writing. Quota as writing procrastination. Ha! Hush...when will this draft be done. Three four hours per 100 pages. Jeez. I annoy me. Ha! .....corazonnnnn.....Astrid in Portuguese!

Could type more stay pieces...oh look *s name popped up in phone word options while mentioning Stay. Coincidence? Nope.

En Vogue. He liked them. Giving him something he can feel ....yeah, he'll feel Stay....everyone is so uptight....understand.....giving him something......does this really let him know this love is real? Will hyperlinking work? Shark Tank. Bunking. No bunking budget. One link to Amazon affiliate for songs and maybe one to YouTube video of song. EBook as experience.

Yesterday I had the blues...apropos...well two days ago. Four days nothing of substance done.

One Thing....one thing this moment this day this week this month this year this three years gets me to five. Type.

Memories fade after book is done like in Tranny. So they will fade. Should've scribed down this stuff before. Exorcise.

Damon Dayoub. His butt on Frankie and Grace. Pics of him on desktop. Married straight. Eye candy. Good Adam prototype look for Stay. Doesn't look like E, hell I would still be with E if he had. true artistic license. Wonder if he's still alive? Turkish Prince? Crazy. Death in eyes. Remember looking at ceiling in ling room after I threw him out....really God an actual prince comes along and I have to throw him out...wheres the reciprocity ? Lotto?

George Michael. Dead. Pisces like *. Eeeeek. * is not dead. Thanks to internet I know that, should stroll by him in supermarket. He looked like hell last time I saw him. Loved something that he could've been. Rat teeth. Small. Loved his spirit maybe. Have had much more desirable bodies. Oh god I slum in love. Casual I'm all picky, love I'm just the fucking Dali lama. Even E wasn't a visual prize.

Plan. Work harder. Make more . Buy love. Buy Damon Dayoub lookalike. Every thing she wants remixxxxxxx.

Love history starting to look like Lord of the Rings full makeup casting call.

Gold digger. Kanye.

My Damon lookalike !

Aaron Hernandez....heh hey tight end. Everyone at work wants to talk to ME about him. Heheheh. I need to see high school boo and jail house. Hamayanna, the female fiancee, pretty. Bisexuality. Hey ties into my Quora Do people straight choose to be straight? How do I hyperlinks that? Laptop not phone work.

Ok Whitney Houston....its not right but its okay.....that dress in the video. The collar, the hair. I'd wear that everyday....to Duane reade to buy gummi bears. Hehehe.

That was a motherfucking dress.
Next lifetime.

If I were a woman I'd spend a lot on clothes, lying to several men for my Louboutins ! and hair. Five Chinese girls in my basement as prisoners to cut and weave in their hair to my head. Grow hair, Li Wu!

Weave, trans and race all in one line! Ha!

Procrastinating.

Ok. Type. Work. Oooh Whitney remixxxxxxxx.

Narf.

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Monday, July 2, 2018

Kyle Phoenix Answers: What is the deepest thought you’ve ever had?

I have had experiences of controlling or influencing reality.

What if we can all, always do it?

For instance, maybe fifteen years ago I had a discussion with my mom and she calmly stated that when she would go to sleep, the world vanished. Upon waking, her memory reassembled reality.

I thought she was narcissistic. Ok, she was but I thought this was one of her heights. Then I saw What the bleep do we know? And this exact thought and theory was espoused and "proven" within quantum mechanics.

Ok, over the years I've had experiences, almost like out of my peripheral vision of manipulating reality. Small things...trains awaiting me, money arriving (yesterday I was taking $40 out of the atm and there was so much more there that I checked my receipt, afraid I had added a zero), people in ny path, "luck", I've rarely been denied a job I've applied for....i just sort of set----there, that one and energy,attention flow creates access.

I often stop myself in stress or limited thought and review how often I've known the next step or when to be still, calmly do my thing and await the next shift.

I often think that this is all manipulable but not with a heavy hand, it's like a soft, glancing wisp of a touch and flick. Or like a needle, not a hammer, focused energy yes, but not a huge explosion or force.

Once on Oprah, Martha Stewart and she, got into this side discussion about accomplishing things so much so that you could see by the audience it was off script for the rest of the room...and Oprah was like she can see and will things and Martha Stewart was like she's almost to the point where she can bend utensils, steel with her thoughts. There was a truthful but casual intensity in that moment.

I think it's true and perhaps my mothers perception is true to, we're holding this together and can consciously manipulate it. I know that spookily enough I've written many aspects of my life and relationships into existence.