I was going to say languages but I really need to be more immersed in them and then I understand better and better.
I’m going to go with certain forms of math. I’m very good at financial math, it’s how I got through math, converting everything to money. I can do big numbers and division and multiplication in my head and I’m shocked and aghast when I see adults stumbling. I can even do probability math in a very high way figuring out winning lottery numbers and combinations.
I have a good spatial understanding, blueprints, floor plans, square footage, geography. But geometry and trigonometry start getting dicey. As does calculus at a certain point. Like things make sense or I can see how A and B combine or become. I can understand the theory but not always the outcome based mechanics. I was actually absent for 80% of the 7th grade, so I expect this gap is a big reason though I recall perking up in 8th grade at Probabilities.
I also don’t manage mundane life well. I’ve often aimed to make lots of money so that i could have money to throw at issues. A job, apartment, shopping, all of that I can do. But I’d prefer not to because I’m butterfingers at the execution. I often think this is what I would seek in a marriage. Or from an Assistant. I’m better at larger and long-term planning or if you said we need this much money by this date. That I can figure out.
I think I also undervalue myself or my capabilities in some ways. I do a lot so it seems like I think a lot of myself, am supremely confident. And it’s not that I lack confidence by I can long term see things so I can reason out will something work or not. That also means I can see all the problems and issues before I even engage them. To stop, slow, handle little bits and pieces is insanity to me. Just not my forte. But when I do start counting the grains of sand, I’m pretty good at it though it’s exhausting.
I have many projects in process—-I think I’m good for getting things 80% done and then I need a rest or I feel like I need more information….and there it sits. Then I’m shocked when I turn back to it and it’s been months since I worked on it. So I work on it some more, feverishly for awhile and it’s still not done (publishable, worth broadcasting, etc.) and it’s changed slightly so now I’m at 85% but it’s not done.
The best thing I’ve found is to have like an agent or manager who points out projects in a consulting format to me, outlines their problems or gives me free reign. Actually that way has been one of the most fulfilling ways of working I’ve found. But to do that front work myself, I can do it but it’s like I’m wearing giant gloves and a blindfold.
Smile, Kyle
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