Showing posts with label employment. Show all posts
Showing posts with label employment. Show all posts

Monday, April 16, 2018

Kyle Phoenix Answers: What principles or structure do you find essential to map your journey for financial success?

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Honestly, I'm not sure my undergrad time was worth it as I did it. The mentoring, the writing, the spiritual work, yes, 80 credits of writing classes. All good.


But afterwards I took about two years of advanced computer classes in office, graphic design and programming for a tenth of the cost. Temping and those classes were a truly great and varied education in business and professionalism. That was worth it. I would have combined the two, maybe been a part time student instead.

Education is my third career, I could've started earlier and I wish I'd started my media business ten years earlier because I have to create so much content. That and a mastermind group, I just joined one here in NYC again. I would have a bigger, deeper CV to convert. I feel like I am playing 2-3 year catch up.

  • The royalties and business hiccups I manage now should've been over a handful of years ago but I didn't know how to carve my own path.
  • Principles in action faster
  • Work to learn, not earn
  • Dump toxic people.
  • Put more into the marketplace, experiment earlier and more.
  • Learn hard skills as priority and softer ones alongside them.
  • Plan and plot years out in 1,3, 5 like I do now.


I would have taken money from mother that came with strings and invested it. I could've found a space between freedom and her control which I used away college to create. (I might've been a basket case then lol I am on the fence about independence and what it cost me on one hand and sanity on the other. I absorbed 50k in debt with college.)

  • Different friends, more ambitious people. I found out a lot I was the most motivated. I would have stated criteria for friendship, I was too frivolous and arbitrary.
  • Planned long-term.

Don't get me wrong, I'm doing okay now and it's getting better but I think a lot on wasted time. Ithink about five years were not focused on my adult needs.

  • Tony Robbins Personal Power 2 cds helped immensely undergrad, I would have done it more, monthly. I got results but I didn't change friends for about four years so I spent time mired in drama.
  • I would trust my own ruthlessness if that makes sense.
  • I've been compassionate as a fault, a disease to please. It took maybe ten years as an adult to sit with a therapist and unravel.

Ok,ok 1 year therapy, part time college, full time work, tech classes, mommy money, clean friend house in that order would've gotten me to productivity now level ten years ago.
Now I understand how to use my past as barometer that's something that is uncomfortable because you're piloting blindfolded so trusting my own instincts took too much time. Now I can say I'm smart enough to be sure of my sense of most things. I'm confident in my own wisdom.


Smile, Kyle
KylePhoenixShow@gmail.com

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Minimum Wage to Reality: My Financial Education, Pt 1 by Kyle Phoenix



My first job, on the books, was for $4 an hour at Pathmark, in Hartsdale, New York, it was amazing to me because I'd been paid $30 a week for about 30 hours of work at Charles' Friend Chicken as a delivery boy.  Sure I had carfare and a whole lot to learn (how to use the register, memorizing the codes for all fruits and vegetables, the departmental division of items---a supermarket is a hotbed of intellectual effort.)  Then we moved and I was then at $3.35 an hour at Wendy's.  I was so proud and even more so when after a few months I got up to $3.65.  I could just smell $4.00 on the horizon with them.  But then I got pulled back into the game at D'Agostino's supermarket, for $4 an hour, which was right across the street from my high school.  I thought being smart was the operative goal, so when I came up $50 short, I proved how their computer system was in error and that it was the manager's error, not mine.  So they fired me.  But that was okay in the short run, I went to Abraham & Strauss Department store, where I got a whopping $7 an hour PLUS 8% commission on ever sale.  I went back to D'Agostino a few months later, armed with a Mastercard AND a Visa cresdit card (that A&S's employment helped me get)  at 18 and shopped, hard---lobster, steaks, the good stuff and such---to prove a point.  The revenge of a teenager.

There were two jobs in between there and college, I wasn't able to go until I was 21, one at $7 an hour and the other at $5 an hour.  At college---I was punched in the gut back down to $3.35 an hour at several university jobs---and a limitation on how many hours I could work.  I literally had to ball together 5 jobs, 4 on the books, and one side hustle to create a decent monthly income to pay my way through school.  But I made it happen.  One year I calculated that I had survived on $3000 for an entire year.  Today, I tend to believe that's what workers in India and China are making, if not less.

After undergrad, my first temp job was $7.25 an hour, then $10.25, then $14---these jumps happening from assignment to assignment across three cities in about 5 months.  Then I landed my first "real" full time corporate job, with overtime it came out to about $46k a year plus benefits.  I was able to get a huge apartment and even when that job ended, I was much more centered in my skills and ability to command a higher salary.  For about 5 years I kept up the increases, averaging out, mastering how to control my spending and taxes until I hit a personal high of around $80k essentially from just temping.  All of that took about 5 years from the $7.25 at a pharmaceutical company in the mountains of nowhere right after college to edging into the six figures in a handful of years.


Since and during  then I've gone back to school several times, learned a lot, incurred some more debt, started a prosperous business, shutdown that business, started another one and gone into the non-profit world, left the non-profit world, gone back to school, gone into education and arrived at the point of traveling a lot around the country, and soon the world, in this hybrid educational career.

Backtracking to minimum wage, I've earned every wage and expect that as I slowly build a sustainable business yet again, it's going to jump back and forth a few more times.  I was just offered a job in 2013 paying exactly $80k a year but it's on the other side of the country---which would mean abandoning my current schooling and not being along the corridor of travel of home, school, family that I have going over several states.  Everyone around me, the headhunters, my family, my friends---they were all tempted, asking about the multiple interviews, about my plans my interest.  I was sort of...meh...about the whole thing.  And even I was struck by my lack of wholehearted interest and frankly, hunger for it that I remember having a handful of years ago or way back to when I left undergrad.  I would've killed a few puppies for that job and been there 23 hours a day, my first job, the $46k one?---I used to clock about 18 to 20 hours a day there and I was commuting from 100 miles away.

My favorite job, insanely enough went back to my undergrad days and temporarily repeated itself: security.  I worked for Public Safety during my undergrad years and someone suggested it and I pursued it.  I'd been walking wherever I wander late nights in Manhattan and noticed a parking lot with a security attendant in it on his laptop.  It must've been about 2am and it suddenly struck me that I could do that!  That I had done that!  That I could get amazingly prodigious amounts of work done.  It took about a month or so before I was sitting in an empty lobby writing to my hearts content.  It was amazing.  I wrote about 6 books, edited them, did law school classes, was refreshed and aware in class (I'm a night owl) and as long as the check covered basic expenses, I was happy.  It was with varying costs and sundries under $10 an hour.

But here's how I looked at it.  And how strangely I look at a lot of work.  For the 8 hours plus 2 hours travel, I got say $80.  I was responsible for watching a few hundred people sign in or out, the numbers lessening when I was on my preferred later shifts.  I generally bought or brought a nice dinner, about $10, my IPod dockable radio, a few books, several notebooks, and a binder of classwork.  Maybe 2 hours was spent acting as security, I didn't have to patrol, just make notations every hour.  Honestly I really didn't do much.  For them.  They literally paid me an extra $50 a night to write my books, to build my business, to study law.  I was good at it because naturally I'm a night owl so they never had to worry about my dozing off---which seemed to be 90% of the issue with most everyone else.

Now for myself, I created several royalty bearing items while I was sitting there, started generating money.  Which meant that $10 an hour some nights was really $30 or $40 as sales were popping up and happening all over the world.  I was able to focus one semester on wholly being a student, taking a break from teaching, and ironically, as a night owl, I would've been awake those hours anyway and probably less productive.  By less productive I mean that for me, personally, I've noticed that work, no matter what it is, as long as it doesn't require too much of me, acts as sort of "nap" from my other thinking and writing and business stuff.  I'm often able to be pleasant and present and disconnected from all the things employees gripe about, both real and unreal, because I'm not in it.


 I started out this blog posting thinking I would take to task the American financial system and explain how the three states of the individual in and to Capitalism (Product (think: slave), Consumer, and Creator (Owner/Entrepreneurs) was underrepresented in a firm understanding due to a lack of financial education overall to the American populace.  I was then going to to rail a little as to how an Owner is forced to choose between their own aspirations and familial responsibilities and the payroll and operating expenses of a business in competition to competitors and the convoluted, equally fair and unfair taxation system.  I was then going to, as an educator, lash into the overall lack of available education to workers to improve their skill levels to increase their value from a physical ratio of 1:1 (one person puts out essentially one point of physical energy) and that not being taught, that ratio, and therefore how to increase the ratio, workers are doomed to thinking what they do is all they can do.  I really was going to go at that.

But I thought I should look at minimum wage in my own work history.  And maybe pull some insights from that as to how I, brown as the floor, have managed.

I was talking to a friend/fellow instructor at Columbia about the American economic system---you know---a light chat----and he was really upset about his current job position.  In my observing opinion and professional estimation, he's a very good teacher.  I actively encouraged and gave him some recommendations for other positions, if he wasn't interested in the laborious task of climbing the university food chain to full professor.  He went on and on about co-workers and bosses and environments at his consulting position.  The consulting position offering health care and other benefits into his contract so it offsets the minimal stuff he's eligible for at the university.  He was just upset.

Listening I realized, I've been an Employee.  And I've been paid every wage.  I personally liked temping and even more, consulting because it allowed me to learn from every place I was at, always my number one priority, and it gave diversity to the places I was at---so I've never sat at any one place for longer that 2 years doing the same thing.  It infused a dynamism to work for me.  I realized also that having my side entrepreneurial enterprises, some years bringing in a few thousand, others up to $50,000 a year, while working full time, have always given me a space to be mentally about work.  I can literally take it or leave it.  I'm there to learn but I've never expected a job to save me, hold me, support me, be there for me, like me, be fair to me.

In fact, I count the Public Safety jobs that gave me time to think, ponder, write, create as pound for pound, the most useful.  Similar to Einstein at the patent office.  Luckily I had read several biographies on Einstein so I knew the importance of time to think, to create (He sussed out the theory of relativity working for 7 years at a Swiss patent office and said he loved it because the low level work gave him time to ponder theoretical physics all day long and not be tied into teaching, working, constantly satisfying an employer about physics).

The current employment system, girded initially by the lack of financial education suggests to employees a care taking that isn't ever stable or assured.  Or bluntly, true.  Your job doesn't love you and your manager will toss you over and replace you, I calculate, in the amount of time comparable to a day to the dollar of your hourly wage.   I realized in talking to my friend, how much of an entrepreneurial mindset I had.  I personally look at jobs like a 7-11 Store---oh good, it's open for that immediate need but I'm really focused on the supermarket, on a big shop elsewhere.  But as an educator, I've worked hard to teach my students, mainly adults now, quite a few Black, Latino and Asian, that the 21st century means that paradigm of being an hourly employee has changed.  I think it shifted in about 1998 or so when skill, higher than a 1:1 work productivity ratio, technology and financial education all merged or coalesced into a bigger, or at least different, expectation of employees.


The average worker is not ready for the 21st century, more than a decade into it.  As more and more of my books publish, several of them focus on the financial future and education of people of color.  I endeavor to in every book print a glossary of information on how money works, on the options for enhancement of one's self.  And I'm standing somewhere in person or on TV or in an online video doing this as well, pretty much every minute of the day.  Don't get me wrong, I've gotten great feedback and seen people do incredible things with the little bits of information I've passed on, I'm just greedy I suppose.  I want more people to be able to do more.  I'm constantly heeding the thrumming in my ears from my ancestors: "Free my people."

Part 2 of this article will talk about the things that I did and maybe the things that you can do to shore yourself up, to get ready because as I forecast into the future, it's not going to get easier, it's going to get harder if you're dependent upon a job.

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Kyle Phoenix
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Friday, January 25, 2013

A Surprising Way To Ensure Lifelong Employment



A Surprising Way To Ensure Lifelong Employment
By Jessica Stillman

It's hard to imagine that most of us have the same problems as actors Zac Efron and Vin Diesel, but according to research out of MIT, many young professionals share a conundrum with the beautiful people of Hollywood.

No, sadly, it's not how to fend off too many adoring fans or maintain those eight-pack abs. Instead, the question that consumes both young careerists and many actors is whether to let yourself get typecast.
Just like Efron and Diesel need to decide whether to accept the "teen idol" or "man of action" label and run with it, or insist on proving the breadth of their skills with (sometimes painful) forays into serious drama or comedy, those of us on our way up the career ladder have to decide whether it benefits us more to be known as a generalist or a niche expert. 

Ezra Zuckerman, a professor at MIT Sloan, examined the career trajectories of actors (and clearly made himself a popular dinner party companion, at least temporarily), revealing that those who typecast themselves early in their careers tended to earn more, work for longer and become more famous.

And guess what? The quicker actors specialized, the sooner and more they worked.

Non-Actors Take Heed

This isn't just crucial info for your actor friends, according to a recent HBR blog post by entrepreneur Daniel Gulati, it's also key information for young professionals looking for advice on how to guide their careers. Being a generalist, according to both Gulati and common sense, has advantages, including the one that keeps even marginally gifted actors trying to stretch their talents: it's more interesting than doing the same thing over and over again. Plus, in a volatile economy, the ability to be agile and shift focus sounds appealing, while landing a niche gig looks harder than casting your job-hunting net wide.

"There is a permanent new dynamism and volatility in the job market, and the cost of experimentation has fallen dramatically," Gulati writes. But he also believes that many professionals take their aversion to specialization too far. "An oft-overlooked part of this strategy is the requirement to amplify your passions and double down when you see early signs of success," he writes. "Instead, unfortunately, I often see the people who've created the most options for themselves continuing to select the one that keeps the most options open. Over the long term, that is a career strategy with diminishing returns."

It may sound like a snore or a dead-end at the start of your career, but specialization will help you earn more and stand out from other job applicants in a truly tough job market.
Guidelines to Getting Typecast 

So if specializing is as lucrative for professionals as it is for actors, when do you move to narrow your focus? "For those who are truly unsure of their career passions, it makes sense to stay general. However, this isn't an excuse to stop hunting for a specialty," writes Gulati. He suggests that the time to specialize is when you find something you can imagine doing with great focus for a long time. Don't force it or you'll regret it, but don't give up the hunt prematurely, either.

How specialized should you go? Gulati notes that this may be more a matter of chance opportunities than something you can pilot exactly. Feel your way to the correct level of specialization, he writes: "Retaining some degree of intellectual breadth is important, as is a level of future career flexibility. In practice, though, this is more a function of opportunities that come your way, rather than a predetermined strategy. Be alert: If your role lacks challenges or if you're disengaging with the content, you're probably being dragged too deep."

Have you been fighting being typecast when you should be embracing it?


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Friday, August 31, 2012

Sad But True, They Are Slaves by Kyle Phoenix


(The Italicized portions are part of an article, anonymously presented supposedly by a White man on the state of Black Americans.)

THEY ARE STILL OUR SLAVES

We can continue to reap profits from the Blacks without the effort of

physical slavery. Look at the current methods of containment that they

use on themselves: IGNORANCE, GREED, and SELFISHNESS.

Their IGNORANCE is the primary weapon of containment. A great ! man once

said, "The best way to hide something from Black people is to put it in

a book." We now live in the Information Age. They have gained the

opportunity to read any book on any subject through the efforts of their

fight for freedom, yet they refuse to read. There are numerous books

readily available at Borders, Barnes & Noble, and Amazon.com, not to

mention their own Black Bookstores that provide solid blueprints to

reach economic equality (which should have been their fight all along),

but few read consistently, if at all.



Sadly, while it is true that Dominant Culture people (read White/Caucasian) have continued to profit off of people of color because of the above reasoning, when I'm teaching, I often hit my students---generally 80 to 90% people of color with the statistic that for every 10 square block in America there is a public library.  Simply put, one, education, is available, now in abundance throughout America.  Two, that of the 3 Ways to Occupy Capitalism (a neutral but prevalent system)
We are disproportionately Consumer, historically have been Product but are only a micro of Producer. And lastly that my education, my advanced education, day by day is to go back and pull out, mentor out, educate out, as many from "slavery", in its newest iterations, as possible.

I estimate that if I continue with just what I'm doing now, with another 50 years, television show, You Tube, teaching, blog, writing---I can maybe touch 2 million people---of that 2 million potentially 1% to 10% will do what true education does----turn around and do what a teacher has done with and they'll liberate 1% to 10% of the totality of people they come into contact with. Imagine if 1000 more people of color did this?  A few hours a week just flooded You Tube with videos of mentoring, explaining how to dress, mentor others, educate, read a book, interview, go to school, get up when you're tired, turn off TV, stay non-addicted, stay non-destructive----imagine if 1000 of us REALLY used the internet? I mean REALLY used it?

GREED is another powerful weapon of containment. Blacks, since the

abolition of slavery, have had large amounts of money at their disposal.

Last year they spent 10 billion dollars during Christmas, out of their

450 billion dollars in total yearly income (2.22%).

Any of us can use them as our target market, for any business venture

we care to dream up, no matter how outlandish, they will buy into it.

Being primarily a consumer people, they function totally by greed. They

continually want more, with little thought for saving or investing.

They would rather buy some new sneaker than invest in starting a

business.

Some even neglect their children to have the latest Tommy or FUBU, And

they still think that having a Mercedes, and a big house gives them

"Status" or that they have achieved their Dream.

They are fools! The vast majority of their people are still in poverty

because their greed holds them back from collectively making better communities.

With the help of BET, and the rest of their black media that often

broadcasts destructive images into their own homes, we will continue to

see huge profits like those of Tommy and Nike. (Tommy Hilfiger has even

jeered them, saying he doesn't want their money, and look at how the

fools spend more with him than ever before!). They'll continue to show

off to each other while we build solid communities with the profits from

our businesses that we market to them.


Sadly, when I project forward, 100 years, 50 years, 25 years, even as America browns, I see brown Americans declining and separating. I am often talking to friends and colleagues about the Chasm----of the Haves and the Have Nots---the Going to Be OK and The Nots---there are some students/young people/older people on my Facebook Friend list right now who think being some of the above essay IS reality. And I am heartbroken and torn because I'm at the stage in my life where my abilities and skills must start to forge my own cave, my own family's future, and there's only so much I can do with two hands in my life. I struggle with the impetus and example of Harriet Tubman and the reality of my students, 22 years old who when you hand them a book---their first words are---"what's this?" They're as brown as the floor and for intents and purposes, dead. They'll see the latest iteration of Batman movies for the rest of their lives, they'll get on color coded mass transit to go back to impoverished neighborhoods to sit and watch tv that only shows people (even in fiction) who make or have $15 at the lowest end, while they go to work for $9 an hour. They'll call me and I won't be able to pick up the phone because I'll have to make the kinds of decisions lifeboat men have to make as the Titanic sinks---how many can I save before this small boat is dragged down?


I pass them by on trains and sometimes in their overpriced cars and they are so lost because they don't know that the storm is coming. That Obama as President doesn't matter a tinkers damn when you don't have a GED or a college education. That by 2014, the USA work market will demand a minimum of an Associates degree to participate as a "minimum wage worker". But they'll have IPhones and IPads and BMWs and Mercedes and drink liquors from beer to vodka, Coronoan to Hennessy---companies that don't offer GED scholarships, nor come into upper Manhattan or the Bronx---wherever in the country that may be---not with branding day but with books and food. Those companies, they'll rush, rightfully so, to Haiti, because the poorest people on Earth, brown ones, know the value of education. Which is why they walk miles a day to apply as 12 year old girls to the Oprah Leadership Academy in South Africa and I can't bribe GED students with lunch, free books and love, in their 20's to a glorious campus like Columbia to READ.

SELFISHNESS, ingrained in their minds through slavery, is one of the

major ways we can continue to contain them. One of their own, Dubois

said that there was an innate division in their culture. A "Talented

Tenth" he called it. He was correct in his deduction that there are

segments of their culture that has achieved some "form" of success.

However, that segment missed the fullness of his work. They didn't read

that the "Talented Tenth" was then responsible to aid The Non-Talented

Ninety Percent in achieving a better life.


We, as African Americans, have passed the legacy of slavery as a rape, as a loss, rather than assuring each other---we won! we beat slavery!  We are alive from a system that did everything to destroy and kill us. I think that's what the Talented 10th learn and hopefully pass on. The Talented 10th I think exist in all levels of a society---in fact I would broaden DuBois to the supposition that only about 10 to 20% of all humanity is keeping the planet moving, keeping technology growing, keeping justice balanced. When I watch the television show Through the Wormhole hosted by Morgan Freemen, I see people of color and all genders and sexualities wrestling with some mighty big concepts----and I think to myself---do the disenfranchised on the corner even know about particle colliders, about satellites, about real estate, about inventing the next Facebook---and with their fingers mind-numbingly clicking onto handheld screens,m thumbing through posts, punching in texts, who's not telling them?

Instead, that segment has created another class, a Buppie class that

looks down on their people or aids them in a condescending manner. They

will never achieve what we have. Their selfishness does not allow them

to be able to work together on any project or endeavor of substance.

When they do get together, their selfishness lets their egos get in the

way of their goal. Their so-called help organizations seem to only want

to promote their name without making any real change in their community.

They are content to sit in conferences and conventions in our hotels,

and talk about what they will do, while they award plaques to the best

speakers, not to the best doers. Is there no end to their selfishness?

They steadfastly refuse to see that TOGETHER EACH ACHIEVES MORE (TEAM)

They do not understand that they are no better than each other because

of what they own , as a matter of fact, most of those Buppies are but

one or two pay checks away from poverty. All of which is under the

control of our pens in our offices and our rooms.

Yes, we will continue to contain them as long as they refuse to read,

continue to buy anything they want, and keep thinking they are "helping"

their communities by paying dues to organizations which do little other

than hold lavish conventions in our hotels. By the way, don't worry

about any of them reading this letter, remember, 'THEY DON'T READ!!!!

(Prove them wrong NOW..Please pass this on! After Reading it..)


I walk sometimes through the streets of Manhattan, through three levels of neighborhoods everyday---Poor People, Middle Class People, Upper Class People and I see it's not simply race that drops one into those categories----it's the fundamental ability to know, to think, to process, to discern.  A people, any people, who can't think, whose thinking has been replaced by big budget films where they're never the hero or emasculated into being simply fuckable, breeding males and females, because that's the only voice, power your race has, will do two things based upon basic human survival:

  1. Those who can't thrive will become neo-slaves and forever be neo-slaves and will serve me and others our basics---french fries, towels at the gym, clean the garbage I won't touch.
  2. Then there are those who will know that maybe life/circumstance means you do a few shitty jobs (I've worked at Wendy's and Pathmark and done day labor on construction sites, and scrubbed walls and mopped floors) to get $100 so you can use $10 to buy a book. 

And while you're scrubbing you're thinking through Frederick Douglass or wrestling with Mozart's symphony or trying to figure out whats the difference in being the furrow in or of his brow in Toni Morrison's Paradise---and then maybe you save up and you get into some rooms where educated, knowing people like Carlene Hatcher Polite and Raymond Federman challenge you, not because of your skin, but because of the brain. The Polites and Federmans of the world will casually say go read these 15 people and come back and tell me what you think and if you're going to attempt to write creatively, why are you limiting yourself to staying literally within the lines on a page? Then years later you're at a law school, 4th best on the planet, scared, but there. Holding your books with only $2 in your pocket, having shaved your comfort to the bone to afford your ticket to slip in, to afford the books, to afford the sweatshirt that makes you feel both warm and welcomed and pushes security to giving you the blank smile they reserve for the students.

But each day when I leave the Ivy adorned walls I go to Bed Stuy, Brownsville, Washington Hgts., and Harlem, and with the group that is smart enough to gather, I sit down and open up my bag and I share the bounty I carried out.  Some days I even snuck it out, I pressed print for twenty copies when I was just standing in the office making one.  Or I sat at a desk for an extra hours pay to buy a book that a celebrated professor lauded on about.  Or I found a digital copy of the notes and class assignments from another professor who travels the world dispensing pearls of wisdom among the intelligentsia.  I think of Harriet Tubman in those moments, I think that the railroad, while still underground is in reverse that I'm sneaking into free lands to bodies held in mental bondage.

One of my students emailed me with the salient question of what happens to those who don't move along, how do I personally deal with that? I've learned, so as to not be crushed by my own heart, to think of myself and my work as a trauma surgeon does, I imagine. I go in and I do my best work---and some patients/students will die on the table; they will drop off, drop out, vanish, go back to jail, never progress, have children before they're ready, have too many children, etc.--- and just as a trauma unit surgeon knows that they have to make decisions with deep ramifications, I pray and meditate diligently or how long I can spend helping people. I rail, I push, I cajole, I challenge, I help, I assist, I champion----but I also admit when I've taken someone as far as my skills, my influence can get them and I move on to the next "patient-student" with a hope and a blessing to the past ones and a new vigor and commitment to the new.  A new patient student with me, patient teacher anew.

I keep it moving because I can't spend my lifetime second guessing myself or waiting for a cracked seed to birth fruit.  I am only one tool in the Universe's workshop, a single lampshade to reflect enlightenment. Sometimes it's me and sometimes it's something or someone else and sometimes, most of the times teaching, it's a dead patient-student on the gurney. Admitting that to myself, letting myself on the hook allows me to put myself on the hook but not lynch, as mental slavery would have me do, myself.



Thank you,
Kyle Phoenix
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http://kylephoenixsite.com/
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Wednesday, August 15, 2012

VideoLOG: Programs for Gay Men-Buying a Home For Free





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